ERRRRRRRRR

Ya know what I am so tired of being like this. I am mad and have no one to vent to. I am tired of feeling like an idiot. I have this outlet to really go on. Our "friend" is really starting to get on my nerves and I really don't like it. I am tired of looking at him happy talking to someone else. So dang tired of it. I am ready to leave I think. Not to sure yet though. I might leave and then send for the kids in a month or so. That way he can do whatever he wants to and we wouldn't be there to hinder him. He is making no effort at all. my life sucks. i am so tired of going to bed at 9 because the kids are asleep and then I am stuck with him saying nothing and doing nothing.