tired

Well nothing new in the land of the disgustingly irritated. I have been trying my hardest to do what he wants which is to leave him alone. I have tried to not gripe about anything which is proving difficult. I am trying to be there for him, which he is not taking advantage of , and I'm trying to not lose my patience with him. He has been sick for 2 weeks now and it is getting old. He will not go to the dang doctor and even though it is just sinus stuff it is getting irritating. NOW that being said when I go through the exact same stuff I go to the doctor. Granted I go to the doctor if my pinky hurts so that is nothing remarkable. I have too much stress in my life and it is coming from him. It is almost as if he wants me to stop loving him so he doesn't feel so bad about not loving me. Well if that is the goal he sure is moving me toward it. I made a list of why I love him and what I hate about him and what I miss about him, gave it to him and well that was a waste of energy. I am so tired of being emotionally by myself. I am so tired of being the one who has to change and I am so tired of being tired of all this. I promise that sock pics will come soon just haven't gotten mom to email them to me.